Identical

I've grown a little bit in height, my voice has matured or deepened. I think differently, behave in a more serious manner. But looking through old photographs and drawings of mine I feel as though I really haven't changed I can still see that young boy who'd cry at night when ever his parents would argue. The crazy kid that would draw insane pictures of cats eating dogs and green skies or had that really overactive imagination. I look at myself and think about how much I loved to run around during playtime at school. I feel as though I'm identical in some aspects, to my immature self. Really miss the simple days of preschool.

Explanation

Funny how when you are at a young age in your life you take for granted things as simple as school. But as you grow up and mature you begin to think about things a different perspective. Those being for one, the opposite sex. Now I've seen a lot and been through some what of my share of "girls" not saying I've been with them, but got to know a few as well as guys. One thing that I can't get or understand is when we are all in a young age and hormones begin to develop or start changing us. Its that when you being to start noticing the opposite sex...................................I really don't know how to put these thoughts in to a functioning paragraph......I'll try a little bit later

we make a pair of parentheses...

Yes I have girlfriend for those of you that still don't know that. I thought it was a little funny how a large portion of my friends at school didn't know that and still are finding out. I guess its a little strange and weirdo for them since they usually see me around girls but nothing more, most of then haven't seen me with a girlfriend. They've seen me really fall hard for a girl but never getting with her and that as close as I've come. I guess you can say I just been waiting for that perfect girl for me and I'm pretty sure she is..I think. Her name is Kelly Juan. Birthday is on Dec.16, she's about 7 months older than me but who's counting? She's a really smart, funny, athletic and a beautiful looking girl. 

...and I'm with her!

Kelly Juan

Mi filipina novia! 

Why aren't you in this class with all the kool kids? 

You should switch classes and come to Mr. Thompson's 5th period class. 

Your already taking Accelerated History.

te quiero mucho filipina!!
(less than 3..you)

Kelsey Koga (skittle)

This chica write here is one grassy ass chick! I'm not jokin' she was tryin' to get all depress-o on me. So I'm doing my best to cheer her up I really dislike seeing one of my peeps down in the dumps over some stupid stuff. Funny thing she was fighting with some one "VIA BLOGs" who would have know. Hopefully what I'm typing makes sense to someone. Well anyways she's a pretty funny girl hopefully she find that "special" guy or fixes thing with her "best friend." Oh and she's also a "skittle" kinda sorta forgot why I call her that but Oh well I bet she even forgot
one day we might just kill a certain someone or teacher..lol

"Look Kelsey I made a blog about you!"

I NEED TO TAKE UP SPACE

I haven't writen a blog in for ever and its not to say that my life is so boring that I got nothing to write about but its just that I've been to bussy to sit down and write about my adventure. But I really have to because I need those 30-points for Mr. Thompson's class. Plus I got so much to write about like how the girl I talked about in one of my blogs is now my girlfriend. How I finally found my best friend. But there's also sad new about how one of my amigas lost her "best friend." It was a sad day..for her. But she's getting better hopefully I'm helping. Most of what I just said will eventually be writen in an individual blog when I get to it.

I made the JV soccer team!!!

A Poor Man's Sport

Soccer is just one of those sports where you really don't need much equipment other than a round object that can be easily kicked. It doesn't take much more than that. Its one of those sports that requires your full body movement at all time and it takes a lot of discipline and talent. I really admire the beauty of the game and all that it means but the only part that I really dislike about the whole sport is sportsmanship! I really dislike it when a soccer player gets cocky and thinks there the best soccer player in the whole wide world. Other than that I really am starting to like soccer and talking it as though it was my life.

If you give it time it gets better..hopefully

I wrote this blog in invisible letters so no one can read it but me.

Just know its there!!

The Light Rail

Days were I never think about where my light rail ticket was placed I never end up having to show it to the ticket-checker-person. Today was an odd ride, it was around 6:45pm when I hoped on the train, and I was on my way home after a hard soccer practice. So the ride started off pretty normal, I just sat near the door and just stayed there. The train was really empty for that time around. Well anyways I was just there minding my own business when a kid about my age got on and decided to sit almost right across me and he started to talk to me like if I was his friend.... .. . . . . .. . .. . I really don't wanna finish this post!

Exuberant

Saturday was CCS and it was one of the greatest days of  my life, there was many reasons but the main one wasn't because I was the only one from Gunderson High School to qualify or that I got to run with some of the best runners in the central coast. It was because my mother went to watch me run! Well it would seem like I would have been embarrassed that she went, but I really wasn't, and I'll be honest, it almost made me wanna cry. For as long as I can remember my mom really wasn't been there for me and its not to say that she was being mean or hated me it was just that she always had to work or something came up. But saturday was different she took the day off from her small restaurant and drove all the way to Salinas. Just to see her son run. It was one of those moments that I wished lasted forever...

" If I could I would keep this feeling in plastic jar

Bust it out whenever someone's actin hard..."

-Atmosphere 

Randomness-nisity

I have to write a few more blog to get the grade fro Mr. Thompson, and well, I've noticed when it comes down to this moment I have a tendency of just typing random thoughts and ideas until its as long as five-six sentences. Also that I make a lot of run-on sentences and for get to hit spell check but I guess it doesn't matter on the count of that its the theme or topic of the blog. I just have to post this little wanna be paragraph and then tomorrow one more and got my complete blog entries for this week. 

A Miscommunication!!

Is the reason why I take back what I said, because I saw you at your most beautiful moment or because I really feel as though we really could have had something. I wish I knew, but I guess you must be really mad at me and I really can't give you a straight answer as much as you would love that. I didn't think it would have ended this way. You have every right to hate me at this moment. I know its gonna take some time for you to calm down and we can talk again but till then, I'm really sorry. I know you may never read this since you don't take the accelerated class. I just felt as though this was just something I had to do to show that I wasn't being an "A-Hole" on purpose. I wish you'd at least look at me once and while you don't know how much it hurts not seeing you smile and feel your warmth when we hug. If I could rewind time I would in this one moment. I want to give you a call but I don' know what I'd say to you. I think I "talk" better when I "type." Which makes no sense because I have a thousand spelling errors even when there is a pretty little button at the top that says "spell check."

I Fell In Love!!

Her name is Julieta Venegas. She's a tad older than me but I don't care she's a singer. I just met her but I feel a real connection. Her songs are the most beautiful thing I've ever heard and I just can't stop listening to them I'm hooked on her song "Lento." Oh, I forgot to mention the most important thing about her, SHE SPEAKS SPANISH!! I don't know how I met her its all a blur but I'm just glad I met her. She is the inspiration for anything I do from this point on.

-If you come across this blog and you can understand spanish you should look up

"Lento" by Julieta Venegas

or

"Andar Conmigo" by Julieta Venegas

Do You Think?

Should I give up or should I keep chasing pavements 

Even if it leads nowhere?

Today I didn't do much just stayed home and worked on Mr. Miclette's project. Since I was told that I had qualified for CCS on wednesday of last week I been training for this saturday. I got a call from my coach around 3:00 pm asking me if I was ready to go running, which of course, I was. So she picked me up and  we were on our way to run. She gave me this pretty fun workout 6-7 miles up hill, it was fun because of the view it gave me of my beloved Downtown San Jose. There was more to the workout but that was the most important part for me. She gave me a layout of how the next two day were gonna look but after that she drove me home. On the way back home she asked me "Nico, what do you think about when you run?" I was kinda startled by the question and it took me a while to respond but in the end I told her I was thinking of a particular part of a song that I had heard this morning. That it was like a CD kept skipping in my head and only played a little part of the song again and again. I also told her that for the most part I just run and don't think about anything.

-she just smiled and drove me home.

Thank You.

"Dreams are different, dreams you can lose. But if you see something . . . a lady, say, and you see her where nobody should be, then she follows you around inside your head." 

Your very much like that lady in my dreams. I think of my days to be dreams. Some you can remember in detail and can describe every part of it and you want to have that dream again at one point in your life. However there are those certain dreams that can't be remember or there is no need to look back on them. I want to thank you for making my first high school year a good one. Your probably are the reason why I can remember so much of it. Its almost like every time I see you I a can recall a different part of my freshman year. Your a good friend and I'm glad I met you.

<3

Im just me now.

My running thing is soon to end maybe three more week, hopefully. After it I make the soccer team I'm not 100% sure that I will make the team. But from what my Cross Country Coach has told me the J.V. coach would like to put me as a "midfielder" since I have the speed and what not.

I really don't have anything personal to look forward to or to think about. Today was a great day, I didn't fall a sleep in any of classes, I didn't stair out side a window or ceiling I payed my undivided attention to the teacher. I was proud of my self but i couldn't help but think how bored I was without doing my daily contemplating over some girl. I t felt weird but I just thought about it less and less each period till I got to math class at the end of the day and worked all period. So now I'm just me really hanging out with my friends and just going with the flow of everything around me once again.

CCS

I finally can say I accomplished my goal for Cross Country, of making it to CCS. But I feel as thought I could have done a lot better if i had more practice. Also I feel like I didn't deserve it there were guys that practiced there asses off and only to be beaten by a guy who ran 4mile days at the most. I robed them but, what can I say? I really liked today's race it was the best race of the season. It was perfect, it even started to rain towards the end of the race. I liked every part of it I gave it everything I had to give and I hope I gave the spectators a good show of cutting people of and leaving runners to eat mud. 

November 15th!!