El Mayor.

I will never understand my oldest brother. How he feels like he has so much authority over everyone else just because he's the oldest. How he can go about asking my mom for money to attend "the club" and lie about how much he's learning at school and how he wants to apply what he learns and expand my mom's business and a whole bunch more b.s. I get really aggravated when he tries to talk about any subject whether it be girl, school, sports or giving me advice. I really dislike how unsuccessful he is and how closed minded about his whole situation. He blames his whole misfortune on my "father" leaving us when we were growing up. But its the only excuse he can think of he takes no responsibilty what so ever on his own part, like ditching school, hanging out with the wrong group of friends and getting into drinking and smoking had nothing to do with why he's forced to live at home at the age of 20 almost 21. I can recall so many memories when we were younger living on welfare and foodstamps and he's he so big man person and tell my mom "oh one day you'll never have to worry about the bills or paying for my younger brothers to attend college", he's so full of it. At this moment he's going to DeAnza College just about failed his first semester or whatever you call it. Says its because he always got to school late due to the lack of a car. Now he has a truck which is being payed by my mother, and he also receives gas money and endless amount of spending money. She says she's just giving back the money he lent her back when he worked. Its funny because he hasn't had a job for over a year. When he did it wasn't even all that much, another thing that bugs be about him is how "big headed" he is when applying for jobs, he doesn't apply for the common job like as an employee but as supervisor, manager. He's just about left every job he had because he said he doesn't like having a boss. I don't know. I guess I'm just bagging on him but its really irritating he's yelling at me to do this get a job help around the house, telling me how I'll never get into college and if I did for some magical reason I'll drop out. How I won't amount to anything. I don't know he's really pissing me off right now but I can't do anything, I already got in a fight with him which ended up getting my other brother involved. Which then he scolded me and having him tell me something is way worse because I actually respect him I treat him as if he was the oldest, only because he's proven to me over and over again that he's determined to leave the situation we're in and make a better life for himself. He's actually getting involved in school and makes me want to be like him. But anyways he was telling me that I should stoop to his level and fight and just ignore his stupid remarks and everything he says because he will eventually do some permanent damage to me because of how much he hates when someone points out his flaws in life.

I still love my brother, he's always gonna 

be my brother and I have no problem with 

that I just wish he'd realize what he's doing 

instead of blaming others.